Quarry To My Conscience, Vol. II: Relapsus

by Tears of Chronus

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released March 31, 2016

All music written and produced by Kyle Chronister.

Special thanks go to Ulf Nylin for creating the album art for this album and to James Eversole for contributing financially to the album's development.

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Track Name: Hunter's Night
Fireless in the city streets,
I sigh
Illusions of this echoed silence
Mirror dreams that round me fly
Ethereal waves of memories leave,
I'm chilled
I still feel the pills from the box that I spilled
When I ran from the dreams that I already killed...

Sleepless in the yawning night,
I'm dead
Memories of a loveless yearning,
Burning thorns adorn my head
Eternity's blessing lost in motion,
I walk
Clocks that will tick to a haunted, harrowed
Heart with a key that has no lock

So begins the hunter's night
So unfolds the truth you seek
Let your conscience be your light
Turn away from the mild and meek (x2)
Track Name: Relapsus, Pt. I: Quarry To My Conscience
So many people out there speaking,
It makes me wonder how many have prayed
Forgiveness is what I will be seeking
For all the apathy I have displayed

So many die, children and teens,
But after all, their deaths are depressing
I'll carry on with my daily routines
With all emotion that I am suppressing

Thousands die as I watch a news story
Conscience hunts me and I'm the quarry
Dreaming dead dance before me
Conscience hunts, I'm the quarry (x2)

Now I feel I'm being hunted,
I've become prey to my moral sense
With ghosts of the dead I am confronted
That I'm uninvolved is a pretense

Millions have died on my TV screen
But after all, their deaths are depressing
Who gives a damn 'bout my daily routines?
Or this obsession that I am suppressing?

Thousands die as I watch a news story
Conscience hunts me and I'm the quarry
Dreaming dead dance before me
Conscience hunts, I'm the quarry (x3)
Track Name: Interlude I: Fable
A scorpion and a frog met
On the bank of a stream they both intended to get across
The scorpion asks the frog to carry him across on his back

The frog asks "You're a scorpion, how do I know you won't sting me?"
The scorpion says "Oh but of course, if I do, I will also die"

The frog sees logic in the scorpion's response, and agrees
And so they set out across the stream
Mid-stream, the scorpion stings the frog,
And he begins to feel the onset of paralysis

Feeling the murky waters filling his lungs,
Feeling them both beginning to sink,
Knowing they both will drown, he has only enough time to gasp:

"Why?"

The scorpion, with his own final breath, replies
"Well I'm a scorpion! It's in my nature!
It's in my nature to hurt those who trust me."
Track Name: Wraith
Am I just a ghost?
Meant to flicker into-and-outta your life?
Only for a moment,
Then it's hush, simmer, shut the lights
Vagrant of the road we left
In ceremonies left to sleep
Scion of the valley of death where asphodel will gently weep

(Hush, simmer, shut the lights
This is not your life tonight)

Dimly-lit city streets,
Only place I can find some peace
I'll fill my lungs with smoke and give my legs a little bit of room
Maybe just because my home-sweet-home
Feels much more like a tomb...
Caffeine, nicotine, dopamine and THC
This is all I need to be,
Ageless eyes can't make me see
Swiftly I have found decay in all these buildings and their bones
I'd shatter the wall of glass between us
If I only had the stones
Then could you be trusted with the way you set my blood ablaze?
I don't have time to wait, you know,
I've had my share of fleeting flames...

Fill my lungs with smoke,
Give my legs some room...
Breathe the air, choke,
This city is my tomb

Your Irish goodbyes,
Your Indian giving
If this is your idea of love,
Then I don't know how you go on living
Constant, craven, cursed craving
Your filthy heart is not worth saving

In an effort to slowly unveil all the words
That you granted to me with a passionate kiss,
There I have learned an unfortunate fever
Upon which, I never had thought I could miss
Misappropriating all your misery and discontent
Kiss my chest,
Diss the rest,
Miss me and then disconnect
I always gave my blood and sweat,
'Cause bein' a slut don't pay the rent
So hush, simmer, shut the lights,
This is not your life tonight
I'm not a fan of logos, see,
I find your reason unappealing
Pathos is my scene with all this motherfucking hate I'm feeling
Caffeine, nicotine, dopamine and THC
This is all I need to be
Until I lose your memory...

So hush, simmer, shut the lights
This is all I need tonight...
Caffeine, nicotine, dopamine and THC
(Hush, simmer, shut the lights
This is not my life tonight...)
This person is not really me!
Ageless eyes, please make me see!
Hush, simmer, shut the lights,
This is not your light tonight
Caffeine, nicotine, dopamine and THC
Hush, simmer, come inside,
This is the life you took in stride
Caffeine, nicotine, dopamine and THC
Chose a life of vice to see if being high meant being free

Running from your hell,
I found that smoke can't help the pain I feel
So I choose, instead, to find the road to what is really real

But with how you took it all,
You warped my view of love and faith
Until the day I'm free,
I know I'll simply be a formless wraith...
Track Name: Relapsus, Pt. II: Shimmer
Never wanted attention,
Just a lover that could make me laugh
Never wanted the hindsight in the backseat windows looking back
A bullet's not unlike a thought,
Imprisonment's the spark we share
But ask me to pull the trigger and
I'll laugh and scream "I just don't care!"

Vapid thoughts encase me daily,
Dreams that I dreamt in the scenes that I saw
Targeting the lonely heart,
Attempts to stack the deck and draw
Requiem in fluid motion
Feels more like an empty dirge
You were feasting on my famine
I had learned to binge and purge

You burned the bridge of sighs and stutters
When you burned the bed we shared
Cuts on my flesh spell out the words:
"You're dead to me, I don't care!"
Is that too "dramatic" for you?
If it is then you're to blame
You said I needed help,
But held me under the ice as I called your name

Shimmer with the flame
You stole from me
Shimmer with the light,
Now, you'll see,
You were just the glow
That led me through the night
Now watch me as I crack the sky,
And shimmer with the light

Now that I have your attention,
Will you see the hell you wrought?
Recompense for your upheaval,
Will you spare the love I've lost?
Decadence in your design!
Cardinal symptoms of my grief!
Consecrate your sick affections
In the remnants of belief
Never again will I endeavor to invoke your kindred mind
For I found the faint connection
Only forged these ties that bind
My heart was never yours to promise
My path was never ours to walk
My time was more than your distraction
Choked by the hands of a ticking clock
Now that I've unveiled your evil
Will you see how you've defied
The very notion of our vows that, just like you
Have long since died?
For you carry with you now
The seed of honor, split in twain
I've chosen to renew and grow
You elect the way of pain

Shimmer with the flame
You stole from me
Shimmer with the light,
Now, you'll see,
You were just the glow
That led me through the night
Now watch me as I crack the sky,
And shimmer with the light (x2)

Never wanted attention,
Just a lover that could make me laugh
Never wanted the hindsight in the backseat windows looking back
A bullet's not unlike a thought,
Imprisonment's the spark we share
But ask me to pull the trigger and
I'll laugh and scream "I just don't care!"

Vapid thoughts encase me daily,
Dreams that I dreamt in the scenes that I saw
Targeting the lonely heart,
Attempts to stack the deck and draw
Requiem in fluid motion
Feels more like an empty dirge
You were feasting on my famine
I had learned to binge and purge

You burned the bridge of sighs and stutters
When you burned the bed we shared
Cuts on my flesh spell out the words:
"You're dead to me, I don't care!"
Is that too "dramatic" for you?
If it is then you're to blame
You said I need help,
But held me under the ice as I called your name
Track Name: Deceiver
Hold me for the night if only just to set me free,
I need the shelter from the light that sheds
The ugly truth on me
We are both alone, so baby, enter if you please
Bow at my throne and I'll bend you to your knees

Give me your word and your secrets to keep
With a sickle in my hand and your love's left to reap
These fangs were meant for you, and soon, you'll feel the bite
Follow me, you will learn how the dark deceived the light

Now that you've survived this hunter's night you faced
Will you stand or fall in the ashes of your grace?
We are both alone so, baby, enter if you will,
Like tears of God on fallen snow, tonight your blood will spill

Give me your word and your secrets to keep
With a sickle in my hand and your love's left to reap
These fangs were meant for you, and soon, you'll feel the bite
Follow me, you will learn how the dark deceived the light (x3)
Track Name: Interlude II: Sadist Lament
Pulling on wings
Slowly and delicately
I hear the screams
Expressing my fears
I continue to pull
This hurts me
Oh, but I hear the crying!
My sadness is appreciated
This enables me to continue
I am feeding myself
I want to cut deep

I will always try to hurt you
I will always try to hurt you
I will always try to hurt you
I will always love you!
I will always try to hurt you
I will always try to hurt you
I will always try to hurt you
I will always love you!

Contradictions are my life
Duality defines me
I want to hurt you immensely
I want to be the only one
The only one who can heal you
I need you to love me
I am slowly dying
I want you to bleed with me
But I will feel guilty
I have pain to give
I will always try to hurt you
I will always try to hurt you
I will always try to hurt you
I will always love you!
I will always try to hurt you
I will always try to hurt you
I will always try to hurt you
I will always love you!
Track Name: Red Flags/White Flags
Red flags,
White flags
Break for peace until you call surrender

Bleeding greys,
Dreaming days,
Bite like nails under a bed of feathers

Will you see
The warning signs
When teeth of truth grind down your rose to ribbons?

Bleeding greys,
Dreaming days,
When you reach the light
Will you be forgiven?

Red flags,
White flags
Break for peace until you call surrender

Bleeding greys,
Dreaming days,
Bite like nails under a bed of feathers
(Bleeding greys,
Dreaming days,
Bite like nails upon a bed of feathers)

Your hands are red,
Like the flags you wave
Virgin white is stained
As you dig your grave

Writhe in the filth
Of the choices you made
Or stand and deliver,
For the truth is yours to save (x4)
Track Name: Relapsus, Pt. III: Recompense
Fleeting flicks of fervent flutters,
Unbanished feelings freely sway
Formed from limerent, flippant shutters

A force that's hit me like no other
Calls the light I beg away
What room have I, in heart, for flutters?

Teach me of trust,
Of grief and of recompense
Forgive me my crimes,
And show me the way
Tear down this wall,
Shatter my defense
Draw out the sun from this bitter shade of grey

Brought to burning, stammering stutters
Nervous thoughts, frost-brought, decay
In pacing, panicked, manic flutters

Old and weary heart will utter
Words of warning ere I stay
Recompense for past love's shudders...

Teach me of trust,
Of grief and of recompense
Forgive me my crimes,
And show me the way
Tear down this wall,
Shatter my defense
Draw out the sun from this bitter shade of grey (x2)

Do I exaggerate these flutters?
Formed from limerent, flippant shudders?
Track Name: Time
Heard it told all things must pass
Our days profound, yet, fragile still
Are trapped within a tender glass

However fervently amassed
Howe'er meticulously spilled
We're bound by that same hourglass

Out of time,
And out of reach
Will you pilfer all you preach?
Practice patience,
Reap and sow
These beggars' hands are made of gold

Sands so ardorously mass
And like the tears of Chronus spill
Good times must all one day drift pass

Never reverent, never crass
Bound by neither good nor ill
Resolved, this flame, that sees us pass

We fear to see our sands fly fast
And falling faster, bid them still
Though in our hands they quickly pass

Neither future, present, past
Can work to see this truth distilled:
It's in our hands to turn the glass

Out of time,
And out of reach
Will you pilfer all you preach?
Practice patience,
Reap and sow
These beggars' hands are made of gold (x4)

Life's a drink, though quickly passed,
I think I'll pour another glass
Track Name: Heat Of The Morning
Take your time, heed all the warnings
Give it some faith,
You know you can't break
The surface 'til you find the way

Make your life
In the heat of the morning
Give it control and slow your roll
To hold your demons at bay

Take your time, heed all the warnings
Give it some faith,
You know you can't break
The surface 'til you find the way

Make your life
In the heat of the morning
Give it control and slow your roll
To hold your demons at bay

In the rising of the sun
Fields of life are kissed with dreams
Presence of a light divine I find,
In front of me, a love supreme

Acceptance of what's meant to be,
Hunter's night is laid to rest
In this moment I can see
I am truly blessed


In the rising of the sun
Fields of life are kissed with dreams
Presence of a light divine I find,
In front of me, a love supreme

Acceptance of what's meant to be,
Hunter's night is laid to rest
In this moment I can see
I am truly blessed

(Take your time!)
(In the rising of the sun)
(Make your life!)
(In this moment I can see...)

In the rising of the sun
In this moment
I can see

In the rising of the sun
Fields of life are kissed with dreams
In this moment
I can see

In the rising of the sun
(In the rising of the sun!)
Fields of life are kissed with dreams
In this moment I can see
(In this moment I can see!)

That I am truly blessed.
Track Name: Relapsus, Pt. IV: Blessings
Lift me from the tide,
With a smile that an angel can't replace

Blessings of life, like rain
Will fall from your face

Gifts are all around
If you only take the time to see

The truth that broke your heart
Can be the love that sets you free

Open up your eyes,
And you'll see the purpose all around

Blessings of life, in time,
Are action unbound

Don't give up the dream,
Just because the road is paved in flame

You know you have to burn
Before the fire can be tamed

Lift me from the tide,
Fire coursing through my veins
Terror turned into triumph
When you grabbed my hand

Newly unbound limitations
Freed me from my pain
Taught me to flee
From the failure of man

Lift me from the tide,
Fire coursing through my veins
Terror turned into triumph
When you grabbed my hand

Newly unbound limitations
Freed me from my pain
Taught me to flee
From the failure of man